Tuesday, March 15, 2011

You love me, even when I'm not at my best

Sometimes I'm a bitch.  I don't mean to be.  I'm still working on processing my emotions before I just boil over and spill them out, while screaming at the top of my lungs.  Apparently, I don't know how to express myself before it gets to that, in a way that is clear to everyone else.  I apologize for you having to bear the brunt of it.  I truly am working on it, but it's just so easy for me to bottle it all up and be laid back about what is bothering me...often I wouldn't even know what the problem is, if you asked.  It's all about making other people happy.  I try not to bother you or the kids or anyone else with anything and then I just eventually have enough of it all.  The bottle can only get so full.  So, thank you for still loving me and understanding how I learned to be this way.  I can use your help with trying to learn a different way of communication that does not involve yelling at the people I love the most.

Friday, March 4, 2011

You sing in the shower

I love that you sing and whistle while you are in the shower.  I don't even know if you realize you do it.  But, it makes me realize that, even with all the stress of work and school, you still have a subconscious, upbeat attitude under the surface.